N Monday, August 18, 2014

Certain things like missing the trains and buses. Have ever wondered what your life will be like if you never missed that train. You will be earlier and will not be late. However, when the opportunities arrives, you will take it for granted and as you know that particular opportunities will be there forever. If this was the case, there will be no such words like " regrets, wished I had done a particular thing and blablabla" exist.

There is this appreciation value graph like when the things you wanted, you will tend to value it higher. When you possess it, you will take it for granted and by the time you lose it, you will start to regret and value it much higher than before. Why do god created us in this manner? If only the world is perfect, we will be a much happier person and when we are happy, we will be healthier as there is no stress and trouble bothering you.

I came across this book called the " lucifer principle " where it stated that people are naturally more self-centred. This is because of survival instinct. It's always the survive of the fittest, doesn't it? If people are more open-hearted, learnt to give a little more, be more caring and loving. The world will be a much better place. No wars, No poverty.

Don't you think human nature is very ridiculous?


` love, 8/18/2014


N Saturday, August 9, 2014

Happy national day... the feelings is no longer the same. Everything seems so different from the past. With all those new policies, foreigners and blablabla, it is just diluting our singapore culture. Nowadays you can see foreigners almost everywhere and you will question yourself whether you are in overseas? ... or singapore...

I remember in the past where many things are still singapore-ish.

Singlish is the common language among singaporean, but now some of your friends dun understand what you are talking about when you are speak singlish.

Everything is rising...
In the past, when you went to Macdonald for a meal, your friends will say " wa you so rich ah? go buy macs " but now...? " wa, you buy mac so budget."? Now macdonalds is like one of the cheapest food around and is filling. Last time, a plate of chicken rice cost around $2, now $3-$5+???!! Like what the hell?
COE : where a piece of paper is like more expensive than a car???O.O

NDPs song was so much better in the past, you can literally feel the pride for being a singaporean, now...? LOL, last year song was so crap until they dun dare to make a new one this year.

Another thing is the singapore education system.
I have to admit singapore has one of the best education system around, BUT it is just too rigid. Everyone expect you to become a lawyer,doctor,engineer, businessman, teacher. But what about those talented in arts but not in academics? they are just push one side by the society. There are just limited platform for them to succeed in life. But smart in academics is just like a good photocopier machine where you just excelled in the theories and "photocopy" into your exams scripts. will you ever get a chance to apply those theories in your life? Not really...
Why are we singaporeans fighting a place in universities, scholarships and jobs with all those foreigners? and they will just leave and return to their countries after getting all those benefits, when we suffered by losing all those opportunities to the foreigners and still stay in singapore??

Dun get me wrong, i do love singapore. With all those clean environment, good security, blablabla. Singapore is a good place to live in, ONLY IF you are rich. I love the country but not the system that run it. I love the things in singapore but not the prices to get it. I understand the government wants to remain competitive on the international level, but they will need to first settle the problems internally and make its citizens happy...

PS: Bring me back to the 1990s and the early 2000s...


` love, 8/09/2014


N Friday, June 6, 2014

Have you ever wonder what your life could be if you had chosen the other path instead of the path you had chosen? Yes, I do. I mean things could be really be different if you have chosen otherwise. Like you could be happier. I always let things slip away from me from me, especially when people are nice to me and trying to make friends with me. I will become some bastard and just... haizz. Some times you have walk through the path to see whether if it is worth the effort. You need to experience it first before you could make other decisions.  However, by the time you walk through that particular path and you realized it is not suitable for you, it is already too late. The grass on the other side is always greener. ALWAYS. People want things that they could not have. So I came to this realization that I should be contend with what I have before it is taken away from me.

If you ask me whether I have regrets, I will say yes. Who doesn't have regrets? But it is the regrets that make us learnt our lessons, is the regrets that make us reflect on ourselves, is the regrets that make us appreciate what we have now especially your parents who is always nagging at me, always making decision against my will, but one day they will be gone and you will hope that someone will always be there nagging at you. Thus, I love how my mum nags at me because one day when you find your house is quiet ......


` love, 6/06/2014


N Thursday, May 1, 2014

People question me why am I so mean to others. Is not about being mean, is just that i dun want to invest my time and my attention to them. People just doesn't stay with you. Every time, i try to be serious with them. they will just leave me in the dust, not considering my feelings. You know that hurts alot. This is why I will only be kind and nice to others who only appreciate and respect who I am and be there for me when i'm undergoing bad times. That's what i call true friends.

This is what I heard from one of my true friends which sounds very true nowadays. 
Let's say when you become a president of student council or sth, all of the sudden you will have many friends swarming to you like bees to honey. They will treat you like some king or queen, doing all the things that you requested them to do.  But once you step down from your position, you realize that only flies are with you. I just dun understand what's this fucked up mentality people has nowadays. Dun you think it's sad :(


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` love, 5/01/2014


N Tuesday, April 22, 2014

The following is jus my true opinion, jus answering what the person ask me... ya, and pardon for my VERY broken english.

So the type of girl that i will go for must first love herself. loving herself as in dun ever ever hurt urself be it on cutting or on their diet fearing that they will be fat or sth. she can be average-looking or slightly better looking, younger than me, love do sports, able to take my cold jokes and pranks cos i am prankster. she must smile alot. i find girls who smile alot very attractive.she can talk dirty with me. i prefer girls who are just "natural" meaning natural hair color, no excessive ear piercing ( 2 is enough ) Since i was from a quite old-fashioned minded family with all those chinese teachings and blablabla, she must first respect their parents/elders. i am ok with her hanging out with her guys friends as i not that kind of jealous bastard. she must be honest with me, share all their problems and secrets with me, communication(Y) is very important .  even though i'm kinda sentimental person, dun expect me to do all the work cos relationship is a two-way traffic so like "we are chasing each other" ,  must learn how to appreciate the presence of me ( who doesn't?)  dun really like them to go to clubbing or sth. we must at least have one common interest if not our life will be very boring. ya i think that's all ba or maybe i could not think of anything else.  

haahaha, that's a very very broken english paragraph. 


` love, 4/22/2014


N Sunday, April 6, 2014

Life sucks nowadays, everyday doing the same routine from school to home and back to school again. Everyday worrying about undone tutorials, assignments and upcoming tests. Not only schools stuff is giving me problems, everything is giving me problems. All I wanted is just a break from life. This pace of life is just not suitable for me. If i am given a choice, i will rather live in rural areas and enjoy my life. I want to get out this country, i'm sick and tired of this system. STUDY HARD>GET A DEGREE>GOOD JOB WITH GOOD PAY>WORK HARD LIKE A DOG>PROVIDE GOOD EDUCATION FOR YOUR CHILDREN> AND DIE. the end. That's a stupid life. I want a change. I dun wan my children to be like that in future.....


` love, 4/06/2014


N Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Dead blog...


` love, 7/29/2009


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